It’s been almost 6 weeks since I quit my job at lululemon, my comfortable and fairly easy full-time job with benefits, to commit more time to 721. That ‘What have I done?!’ feeling is justttttt starting to kick in, ha! lulu was exactly what I needed when I needed it, seriously but I’m happy to have a bit of my time back. I’ve been able to engage more with my students too which was a goal of mine this year. What I’m about to say might shock you. lululemon was my first full-time job, like ever. I know! I’ve been a serial entrepreneur working mostly remotely from home so this was a huge adjustment for me over the last 1.5 years. What a blessing in disguise. I had no idea how much I would need lululemon when I applied for a seasonal part-time gig that I thought would just be a good opportunity to market myself in the yoga community and get a discount on clothes. It ended up becoming so.much.more.
Everything happens for a reason, right? I had never been in lulu before. I walked into the NorthPark store to ask for an in-kind sponsorship of reusable bags for an event I was hosting and had started following their page on Facebook to give them a shoutout. I saw they were hiring for seasonal work and there was an upcoming group interview over a game of sand volleyball so I decided to check it out. It was super fun and a great experience. I ended up getting offered a position and was set to start the following week! Then, just like THAT, my world was completely turned upside down. My dad unexpectedly passed. We were incredibly close. Being the warrior (or weirdo?) I am, I decided to still start work. I sat there in a group training, the day after my dad died. Trying to hold everything together and not cry in front of them, I had barely got out of bed that day. I should of known during my interview when I was asked what my spirit animal was (spoiler- it’s a seahorse lol) that the training wouldn’t be conventional either. Had I of known what the day consisted of, I 110% wouldn’t of gone. I assumed I would be learning how to work a cash register since I had never worked retail and Black Friday was my first scheduled shift. Nope. Instead? We did a meditation, journaled and wrote down 1/5/10 year visions and goals. Yup, how did I find myself here?! Haha! What kind of company was this?? As much as it hurt, and I didn’t want to imagine my life without my dad, I knew I needed to take time to figure out what I wanted and where I saw myself now. My life was about to look very different. What started out as a part-time job turned to a full-time family and support system during a super emotional transition. My dad didn’t just unexpectedly pass, he passed without a will so it was a long and drawn out process. On days when I felt like I couldn’t give any energy out, I was forced to get out of bed, even if it was just to go fold stretchy pants. It got me up. It got me out of the house and around positive and healthy people. Something I probably needed that first year for sure. lulu held me accountable for setting and working towards goals, something I had never really done and they paid for me to take several workshops and classes that have added tools to my toolbox and have really benefited me personally, physically and mentally along with helping to grow my business.
Reflecting back, life handed me lemons during this time for real. Just off the top of my head- my dad passed and I spent months in lawsuits with family, I took on my first full-time job, I ended a fairly serious relationship with my boyfriend, my car was hit and totaled by a drunk driver, and I sold our house and moved into an apartment. All while running a business and being a mom. Thank God for my yoga practice! I know I can’t control everything going on, the good, bad, messy and painful things life throws my direction sometimes but I can control my reaction towards them. Knowing that everything is really happening for me and not to me is key. I’m thankful for my lemons. Seriously. I’ve grown so much with each experience. Every one of them pushing me to be exactly where I’m supposed to be right now.
Each day I take a few moments to get still, to unplug, connect with my breath, check in with myself and listen to what’s coming up. Multiple times a day. I also take time to journal. I write about whatever comes up, sometimes that’s just a few words other times I get very specific. This is such a simple yet powerful practice. Last year my car kept leaving us hanging. It had been a great vehicle but had over 200k miles and was falling apart faster than I could fix it. I wasn’t sure what to do, I knew I didn’t want car payments but didn’t have the funds available at that time to pay cash for a new car. Instead of focusing my attention on not having money for a car, I started journaling what kind of car I wanted. I did a visual meditation where I saw the car, specifically what kind and what color and I imagined it sitting in my driveway. It even had a big bow on it too haha! Four days after starting to journal about this, my car was hit and totaled by a drunk driver. It couldn’t of happened any better way. My daughter wasn’t in the car, I didn’t see him coming, nobody was seriously injured, he had insurance, it was the biggest blessing! I remember the day it happened someone asked me what kind of car I wanted, I started to hesitate and say I wasn’t sure, that I needed to wait and see how much insurance paid out (living in fear/doubt) but I quickly changed my response to, “I’m getting a black Ford Edge.” I put that very specific vibration out because I had already taken the time to figure out what it was that I wanted. I already saw it sitting in my driveway. And three weeks later, I went to a dealership by myself and looked at only one car. A used, black Ford Edge that I paid cash for and ugly cried as I drove it home, thanking God, the Universe, my angels, and my dad for all transpiring together to help me. I wasn’t asking for anything crazy, I needed reliable and safe transportation for my daughter and I and I asked very specifically for it. Driving home I heard my dad tell me, “Happy Birthday, baby girl.” And at that moment I realized why when I saw the car in my driveway during meditation, it had a bow on it.
I tell you this as an example. To encourage you to take time to figure out what it is you want. Write it down. Get specific on details! Do a meditation where you visualize these things. What does your ideal job look like? Relationship? Home? What does it feel like? Sit with it. Revisit your journaling, remind yourself to stay focused. In tune with the vibration of what you want. Make a vision board and hang it somewhere you’ll see it regularly. Don’t just reach for the stars when there are realms far beyond. Living in fear is an easy default, having faith takes courage. Use your faith on purpose. Live in practice. Do the work. If you need some motivation, reach out!